XOXO SARAH

Wow that was a long time ago. I can’t believe I said stuff like that. Okay here’s the deal, I know I haven’t posted in almost a year but after a while I just thought it would be weird if I posted after so long. But today I realized I have something to say. Well sort of. First lets start with my expectations. I don’t actually think anyone will ever read this or anything but I think it’s a good way to vent my feelings, to stay writing in the very least. And if anyone does ever read this well then good luck deciphering this hodgepodge of thoughts. So I probably won’t write all that often, just when I feel like it.

Since the last time I posted a lot of things have happened. Here’s the basic lowdown. I’m a sophomore, I’m taking psychology, english, crafts and photography A day B day, and civics and economics. I’m single. I’m working on my IB personal project in Fashion/Portrait Photography. I just had my b-day but I won’t get my license until the beginning of July. My mom works at the Raptor Center now and my dad is still a professor at UNCC.

I feel like last year’s posts seem really…weird. I was so stuck up almost. Like telling people how to handle guys when I don’t have any idea myself really. Haha I’m such a drama queen at heart. Oh my gosh I also used to post my Facebook statuses as Taylor Swift lyrics and hope my boyfriend/exboyfriend would get the hint. I can’t believe I was so uncomfortable with guys. But then, I really haven’t had a bf since like april anyways so I wouldn’t know if I’m really willing to share my feelings with a guy. Sometimes I wish I had a bf just so I had someone that I saw everyday or at least talked to everyday that I could tell everything. But then when a senior asked me out earlier this semester I said no because I didn’t think I had time to deal with a bf. So who knows, maybe if the right person asked.

I’m trying to change my style to a more artsy bohemian feel. I just feel like my clothes are such a turmoil of different styles and aestetics. I wanted to pick one that went with who I am and who I want to be. I tried to cut up some of my old clothes today. It was awful and an epic fail. Good thing I don’t want to be a fashion designer. Maybe a stylist, a store buyer, or some other field in fashion. My mom has definitely not accepted this yet, she still wants me to be an engineer. I feel like everyone wants me to be something I’m not. All I want to do is apply to the Fashion Institute of Technology in Manhattan, the London College of Fashion, or Parsons, major in Fashion Merchandising, and get a job under a stylist, a designer, or at a major fashion magazine. But they all think I should go to Harvard or Dartmouth or somewhere Ivy League. I don’t know…. I guess I have another year or two to convince them or figure out that I want to do something else. I do also like human rights, traveling, and government work. Maybe I’ll pick something like that but I wouldn’t say I’m exactly passionate about it.

So basically my life is a mess, it has been a mess, it will probably always be a mess. Alrighty I’m signing off.

XOXO

SARAH

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